Push and Pull

I find that I go back and forth between art and not art.
Over analyzing
I think too much
I think I shouldn't be doing this
I haven't got any talent
And I don't want to pawn it off on others for not being encouraging
I should be able to have confidence in myself
But it isn't there
It will be
One day
I hope
I am going to finish a painting this weekend
I can do it
I do have what it takes
I am something special
Even if I'm the only one who sees it